Timbuktu asked:
Hello, well im 22 and my life has gone terribly down hill, wudnt call it deppression as there are people out there who really have it but i wish i cud just disapear. I had a great young life, had a hell of a good time in uni and then everything started to go wrong. I went uni far away and made really gud friends, when i came back, all my friends have disconnected which means i dont really have anyfriends back home no more where il be stayin from now on, and my friends from uni- hard to stay in touch as they live far away but i still chat to them occassionally on msn. I have only two friends, well one im still really close with but because of his condition which has effected his appearance( this really pissed me off) we cant get into any clubs in London as the bouncers make excuses. I cant get a job since leaving uni so im studying again in a uni closer to home which i hate, i have no social life now, even worse i dont even have a girlfriend, i have big scars on my face. I hate life.
And the big, permanant scars on my face really annoy me as everyone just stares and says something bad about me and i want to smack them all, so i listen to music when im out and about as a means of not being able to hear them. My social life has been to stay at home, thats all i do, stay at home and going more mad by the day, espacially since im of from uni, dont want to get a job. I am so angry and the world, its more anger at the world, my life, society, people, just everything. Im getting more paranoid now, even people who laugh not at me gets me thinking whether they are laughing at me. I want to be happy, i want to live a good life but at the mo i think the future aint bright and iv had enough!!!!
Yes iv tried the dermatologist, theres nothing they can do, seconly iv tried lightening products, that aint worked. I think its because i dont do anything thats causing people to keep making horrible statements, im just going to beat em, that would quiet them down for sure, that is what most people are telling me, if you scare them then you will get respect. Thanks for all your comments
Matthew
Hello, well im 22 and my life has gone terribly down hill, wudnt call it deppression as there are people out there who really have it but i wish i cud just disapear. I had a great young life, had a hell of a good time in uni and then everything started to go wrong. I went uni far away and made really gud friends, when i came back, all my friends have disconnected which means i dont really have anyfriends back home no more where il be stayin from now on, and my friends from uni- hard to stay in touch as they live far away but i still chat to them occassionally on msn. I have only two friends, well one im still really close with but because of his condition which has effected his appearance( this really pissed me off) we cant get into any clubs in London as the bouncers make excuses. I cant get a job since leaving uni so im studying again in a uni closer to home which i hate, i have no social life now, even worse i dont even have a girlfriend, i have big scars on my face. I hate life.
And the big, permanant scars on my face really annoy me as everyone just stares and says something bad about me and i want to smack them all, so i listen to music when im out and about as a means of not being able to hear them. My social life has been to stay at home, thats all i do, stay at home and going more mad by the day, espacially since im of from uni, dont want to get a job. I am so angry and the world, its more anger at the world, my life, society, people, just everything. Im getting more paranoid now, even people who laugh not at me gets me thinking whether they are laughing at me. I want to be happy, i want to live a good life but at the mo i think the future aint bright and iv had enough!!!!
Yes iv tried the dermatologist, theres nothing they can do, seconly iv tried lightening products, that aint worked. I think its because i dont do anything thats causing people to keep making horrible statements, im just going to beat em, that would quiet them down for sure, that is what most people are telling me, if you scare them then you will get respect. Thanks for all your comments
Matthew