My boyfriend did something to betray my trust and it just hurt me real bad. I broke it off with him, he asked if we could still be friends, and I said I didn’t want him in my life at all ever again. I was so angry with him and I just said some very horrible things to him now I wish that I could take back, but at the same time he deserves them.
I don’t know how to cope with this. My life is just horrible. I feel so depressed all the time. It’s been two months since we broke up, haven’t talked since, I have to walk passed him in school every day and it’s just so hard. I feel my life is pointless. I don’t even feel like waking up in the morning. I don’t wanna be at school, at home, anywhere.
I just want him to tell me it’s gonna be okay. To tell me he loves me, and look me in the eyes the way he always did. No one has ever looked at me the way he did.. he just looked at me with this.. I don’t even know how to describe.. it was just like love in his eyes.. and I cry sometimes thinking about it. I know I will never find anyone that will look at me that way ever again.
He told my best friend who is also one of his pretty good friends that he was over it and me and that he doesn’t like me anymore. It just seems so hard to believe because he loved me before we started dating, for years. Me and him were best friends for years before we started dating and now it ended like this. I was afraid this was gonna happen.
I miss him more than anything. I just want to be friends at the least. But I can’t crawl back and say that. What he did was bad and hurt me, and if I’m the one who goes back that will look bad and it wouldn’t be right. But I know he won’t come back to me because I told him I wanted him out of my life forever… so I don’t know what to do. I can’t take life anymore. I miss him. I miss having someone there. I miss knowing someone loves and misses me. I don’t know what to do. What should I do? Is it possible he still loves me?
Hunter
