∫e mousquetaire XVI asked:


i feel completely hopeless and lost- like theres no way back, like im lost….ive left it too late…my goals in life are all unachievable….i have alot of problems……and here they are…prepare, its a long list :

i have prematurely aged at the 3o due to a hard life and stress.

i have bpd and ptsd- i feel i look a physical wreck, im bald, my skin looks colorless, dull, pasty, open pores…rough skin, dark deep lines under my eyes stretching to my cheek bones…i feel my eyes look like dark caverns.

my other physical imperfections are: i have 2 missing teeth, at the front, bottom row due to an accident years ago..

a crooked little finger that droops over due to an injury months ago…doesnt straiten even with a splint put on for weeks.

cracked skin, tears in the skin on the head of my penis that im waiting to see a dermatologist about…….openings in the skin that are pronounced all over the head.

torn ankle ligaments, it clicks when i move it, i have to be careful how i walk on it because i can twist it easy and go sprawling over on it– i will need surgery on it.

whilst having my ankle examined i was told i was flat footed, i was given insoles.

but whats really concerning me is my physical appearence, my face, the aging, dark lines, facial skin etc.
my facial skin looks colorless, dull, pasty, without a glow or vibrancy.

what do i do ?

How do i cope with the fact ive prematurely aged at 30 years old due to a hard life and stress ?
im a 30 year old Borderline personality disorder sufferer. ive faced nothing but pain, trauma, victimization in my life.

ive never been employed…never made any friends, never had a girlfriend…
i live on welfare in a one bedroom apartment on my own….havent got a supportive family….they blame me for everything…the unhappiness thats happened throughout my life is all of my own doing in their eyes…..they impose on me and suppressed me growing up…..now ive distanced myself from them.
i have symptoms of ptsd, depression, aggrophobia, panic disorder…i have anger problems, that went suppressed due to extensive bullying.
im trying to get the right help & treatment for my problems which is going slow.
im at such a disadvantage in life as regards achieving life goals.,,,im starting at such a late stage at 30 with no employment history…a long mental health record…whos gonna accept me??
i have dreams & ambitions i dont no how to reach
that will be impossible to reach because of my situation
in life.
i want to emigrate from britain, build a new life..find
happiness…find employment, a good job…..a loving
partner….some friends….i wanted to emigrate to the
usa….somewhere hot, where theres a beach…

but none of that will happen i no….my situation is
to difficult..
i feel brandished because of my mental health problems
like people will hold it against me…..ill be ostracized.

i dont want to stay in britain ( saying through clenched
teeth)
i want out…to build a new life else where..but look at
my circumstances? what chance have i got?
i cold and alone, lonely..no one to turn to, except a
few online friends….
so is there hope? or should i kill myself too prevent
further pain?
i mean….can anyone blame me for feeling enraged and jealous at happy people ?

one things for sure, i hate england and want out !

i feel like theres no hope for me……i should be locked away in a small room forever……i exist in a small flat feeling stuck……that im never going anywhere…

it feels hopeless…..ive aged bad and look like shhht……dark lines and a bald head…….other physical imperfections and worries..

Tyler

kelllll. asked:


My boyfriend did something to betray my trust and it just hurt me real bad. I broke it off with him, he asked if we could still be friends, and I said I didn’t want him in my life at all ever again. I was so angry with him and I just said some very horrible things to him now I wish that I could take back, but at the same time he deserves them.

I don’t know how to cope with this. My life is just horrible. I feel so depressed all the time. It’s been two months since we broke up, haven’t talked since, I have to walk passed him in school every day and it’s just so hard. I feel my life is pointless. I don’t even feel like waking up in the morning. I don’t wanna be at school, at home, anywhere.

I just want him to tell me it’s gonna be okay. To tell me he loves me, and look me in the eyes the way he always did. No one has ever looked at me the way he did.. he just looked at me with this.. I don’t even know how to describe.. it was just like love in his eyes.. and I cry sometimes thinking about it. I know I will never find anyone that will look at me that way ever again.

He told my best friend who is also one of his pretty good friends that he was over it and me and that he doesn’t like me anymore. It just seems so hard to believe because he loved me before we started dating, for years. Me and him were best friends for years before we started dating and now it ended like this. I was afraid this was gonna happen.

I miss him more than anything. I just want to be friends at the least. But I can’t crawl back and say that. What he did was bad and hurt me, and if I’m the one who goes back that will look bad and it wouldn’t be right. But I know he won’t come back to me because I told him I wanted him out of my life forever… so I don’t know what to do. I can’t take life anymore. I miss him. I miss having someone there. I miss knowing someone loves and misses me. I don’t know what to do. What should I do? Is it possible he still loves me?

Hunter

Steve E asked:


With everything that’s going on in the world today, how do YOU cope with the madness? In addition to all the madness in the world, you pile on the problems in life and it’s a wonder the entire planet has any sanity left.

Thomas

Lauren S asked:


i have already talked about it with my family. im just askin people advise to get over it so it wont hang over my shoulders for days.

Landon

lazydazy asked:


how can u juggle friends, work, etc etc etc well and comute arghh burnout and its only the begginning of term! help??

Kayla

Jonathan V asked:


….mine very much…
having depression, psychosis, parents who don’t love me, unable to go to school, being institutionalised (!again!) I discovered that I can’t cope with life, I’m a crazy f*ck, list goes on, does your life also suck so hard?Mine sucks without boundaries…:(

Chase

Seth M asked:


I’m currently coping with a death of someone I knew (suicide actually), and I’m finding that I feel intensely guilty any time I laugh, feel happy, or begin to settle back into regular life again. It’s almost like if I feel good again I’m betraying this person or disrespecting their memory. Is this normal and how do I get over this feeling?
Yes, this death occurred 3 days ago, so it’s still fresh in my mind. Thanks to everyone for the comforting words.

Steven

Metal Chic asked:


i have cut myself because i feel my life has no worth..
my grandfather (who was my father figure in my life) died back in march..i want to be with him i miss him so much!..
i have three half-sisters..one is almost 2..the other two are twins and are just gone 2weeks old..i am 19!! i feel i cant bond with them as a sister!!
my ex told me he wishes i was dead!!
my mam’s ex used to touch me when i was only 14 while he helped me with homework!!

i hate myself..i feel fat and ugly..i cry sometimes when i look in the mirror…

help me get ova this…

Eric

Mariposa asked:


There is only one-way in which one can endure man’s inhumanity to man and that is to try, in one’s own life, to exemplify man’s humanity to man. (Alan Paton)
How can victims of inhumane acts cope/deal with the trauma they experience? How does forgiveness come into play? What needs to happen for the healing process to begin/happen?

Evan

reconployer asked:


with out your loved one who as past away.

Jonathan